Waves
Ebbing and flowing
Up and down
The connection between the world within us
And the world outside
Can you see the mirror?
Am I brave enough to look beyond what’s infront of me
I know I am here for something so much bigger and greater than just “getting by”
The need to numb can become incredibly strong in these confronting moments, when I dont like what the mirror is reflecting.
Letting go of the past, old stories, identities and beliefs that no longer serve who I am and who I am becoming
I scream, cry and dance to the rhythm of the beat that is making its way up to the surface
I see it, hear it and feel it with every inch of my being
I send it off with a kiss and so much gratitude
At one time this is what kept me safe
I dance more, I scream from the inside and I smile
The knowing that the ways of the past and the uncertainty of the future has no hold over me here in the present
I surrender
I let it be
I hold and craddle myself through the process
Letting my shadows come home
I integrate the parts of me I have kept hidden out of fear, the parts I have turned to out of survival
As I ride the waves
I sink deeper into
All
Parts
Of
Me
My roots
Extending
Reaching down
Looking to penetrate
Wanting to feel secure
Looking for grounding
Stability
Wanting to feel home
Somewhere in this world
My womb
Bleeding
A fire burning within
Storing memories
Old energy
Trauma
Shedding
Releasing and self cleansing
Bringing forth the divine
Incubation
Ready to come out kicking and screaming
Caught
Umbilical cord wrapped around my throat
Tightening my capacity to speak into what I’m truly experiencing
Confusion
Feeling lost
Escapism
Denial
Feelings of self betrayal
I cant bare to look
Drowning
In only an inch of water
Searching
Curiosity
Deep inner knowing
Heart
Cracked open
Light fills the cracks
Warmth
I’ve made it through another episode
Sinking deep
Reflection
Transmution
Death
And
Rebirth
Downloading..
Processing..
Upgrading processes
Deep in Configuration
Contemplation
Manifestation
Feeling frustration
Mixed emotions
My wings as they spread, they are still crumpled from the cacoon that holds my healing
Layer by layer
Putting myself together piece by piece
Paitence
Temperance
Attention to detail
Each small stone becomes the collective of a solid foundation
Daily rituals
Become habitual
Hocus pocus
Godammit please focus
Weaving in and out of timelines and reality neither here nor there
Conforming for confirmation
Validation
Over analysation
That may lead one to believe they are living their best life
Influencers
Instagram
Facebook
Posts and stories
The latest trend
He said, she said
The treadmill of updates
Constantly catching up to keep up
Over stimulation
Too much information
Anxiety 101
Who fucking cares anyway?
Periodic shutdown
Disconnect to reconnect
What is truly important here?
That tiny faint whisper, do you hear it?
Thats your heart
Drown out by the noise of comparisonitis
Not enough?
Go fill up your cup
The juice you need is waiting for you on the otherside of the energy your giving away so freely to a highly orchestrated system
Alone time vunerablity ~
Awareness of self
Niggling discomfort
How can I release this?
Acknowledging the past
Feeling the feels
Letting them go
Rawness
Uncomfortable ache
Awkward silence
Futile attempts of distraction
Like brushing past a hedge of thorns
Or climbing a barbed wire fence
My skin is thicker
It no longer bleeds
My curiosity deepens
Bringing my focus back inward
I am coming home
Bringing all versions of me
I embrace them all
I meet them with
Compassion
Kindness
Unconditional love and
Forgiveness
For what I’ve held
Unexpressed
Repressed
Barely addressed
Can no longer hide
I sit with my heart
She whispers
All is well
I sigh with relief
A breath to ground me into the present
I am safe here
No longer in a battlefield
I am free from the emotional prision of the cycle of abuse
I smile
I embrace myself physically in rejoice
This alone time is what waters the seeds of my existance
How amazingly beautiful is it to find yourself over and over
To recognise who you are not only in moments of
Happiness and bliss
But also moments of
Despair and Darkness
The aching of your heart, once broken and discarded
To the cradling and an unapologetic release of what is no longer within your truth
The Freedom that follows emotional release physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually is like no other
The returning of you to you
As you were once chained down, prisoner to these events, triggers and emotions
To know all along you had the key and were free to leave as you please
You came and went but you never left the parameter
You didn’t know how
What scared you about Freedom was the uncertainty and being in discomfort of a new space
The recovery and unraveling that would become of you
Now you crave it
Little by little you know it’s the key to your path, your Soul’s journey
The liberation of all the lives you have ever lived
Your mind cannot deny yourself of what’s already yours
Its time to claim it
With
All
Power
To
You
The heart wants what it wants
Referred to when relating to external love.
What if what the heart wants and needs is your love
Direct attention inwards
To you
The authentic you
The one behind all the layers
Dig deeper into who you are
With this layer gone, then that layer
Start letting go of what you know deep down doesnt feel good on you
Even if at one point it felt good, even if you continue something thats slowly destroying you mentally, physically or emotionally
Practicing the art of letting go,
Of identities, roles we play out, stories and patterns that no longer serve our highest good
Let this become an observation
A reminder that our hearts are responding to everything
Software updates from the heart to the mind
An observation brings awareness
Awareness brings perception of a different kind
A birds eye view
One thats unfiltered
It does not know good from bad
Just experience playing out
Our emotions – feedback
As these things are in contrast, we can start to see clearly
Our emotions are our guides
Once we understand that they are watery like the tides and moon dance
Ebbing and flowing
What feels good?
What doesn’t?
Dig deep
Into the discomfort within
The past will always take up space in the present
Breathing in deep,
I hold my breath
And name 3 things im grateful for
Feeling the breath send a kiss goodbye to my body after a warm hug on the inside
I feel like im home
I sit back and reflect on my truth,
Its incredible in how we communicate our mind and body
The nervous system
Calculating
The exact amount of chemicals to protect us from danger
But also alert us and prepare us for what could come if our hormones do send the signal
Fight or flight
Heal the nervous system through self care whilst falling in love with yourself and the process
The journey of the marriage within
Remember?
We agreed to come here to discover what its like to be human.
All
Of
It
Imagine a place
where we exist
For only 80 odd years
On the span of 27000 year cycles
What had come and gone?
When time and space passes
Will we eventually be history
Nothing but
Ruins
On a landscape of lush garderns
A story that
In our life times
We were part of a shift
A shift in consciousness
The age of the aquarius
Shes here
And shes coming for humanity
The veil
Becoming thinner
Eyes wide
Seeing clear
The message
Resounding
Loudly
Vibrating through our cells
Screaming at us
To listen
When will we understand
What one does
Affects another
All of us
As a collective
As humanity
As an eco system
As a planet
When we will we get the message
Economy doesnt mean shit without Ecology
Will pure greed consume us all?
Suck us into the black hole of self
destruction
Verging on extinction
Before we realise
Enough is
Enough
Fragments of time
Swirling
Morphing
Appearing then disappearing
Can you feel yourself coming and going?
From what was to what is
Dissociating
Anticipating
Recalibrating
Cutting cords
Retrieving energy
Bringing the focus back within
You can no longer hide amongst the crowd
Behind the noise
The hustle and bustle
Karmic contracts opening and closing
The masks are dissolving
Shadows appearing
Truths revealing
Are you ready to face another day?
Cleansing and clearing
Bringing forth a new spectrum
We must move into the darkness, the rubble, the mess that is ours
Nothing outside of us can save us
Go within
Befriend the demons
Get comfortable in the dark
We will be here for some time